♥Monday, March 8, 2010
confuse i am make me start thinking about stuff more complicated then ever......
feeling close to God make me feel more relax but going any more nearer need me to be committed... commitment is nv my type of job, all i wish is just having freedom being set free from all boundary and burdens, God will help me remove my sin, my burdens but that does not set me free i will need to be as one with the lord and serve him and they say the greatest reward is to be with him stay with him? if that's the case were is the freedom? and is this what i want?
why am i close to God? is it just because i want to be with HIM? or is it because of friends? what will happen if all my friend left? will i still be faithful and stay committed?
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i will soon hear if i am approve to work part time in resort world sentosa, i have chosen part-time instead of casual timing cause part time will be more stable then casual timing, but part time need to work at less 22 hours per week that will remove Friday afternoon time, Saturday and Sunday timing, which mean is i am to work there i will not be able to go for servicing, worshiping and praising
GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!! i do not know if you can hear me but i hope you can help me with choice
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♥Friday, November 20, 2009
its already mid nov going dec le this term do pass fast finally project all has been completed with the help of anni, ys and all thx guys...
ya like i said its already nov going dec and i still have not change?(maybe not a right word to what i describe) hmm.. still lost and dull, i have people close to me around me but i still feel alone why? why am i feeling this way?
injured my leg again... still recovering.......
life is like a game but this game have rules not only rules came with the games but also rules set by other people that are involve in the game, you can nv play alone not because u wan to but it is a must to have people playing his games with you. this game is real, the only thing different are. we are the pieces in the game, the game will nv be fair, there are no reset but only the end and 1 more things is that normally during playing games you only play with a set but for this game you will play with more then a set maybe more then u can count but this game you can stop any time you want once stop its the end u can nv ask for a replay or a start over, game over means game over..
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♥Friday, September 25, 2009
thinking of quitting and getting something easier to learn and work part time to save for music school instead of continue on being lost and more... will be in NS in 2 years time.... there is not much time left.... it may be troublesome but life goes on no matter who, how what u are....
Yuki,Miki,Akira,Riko,Ramsey And YF thx for visiting me and the gift you bring, glade that u found your goals in life. ありがとおございます
dec outing will be a chalet planning pls do?! wanna get out of my home asap, my life like so boring need life.... so planning pls
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♥Thursday, September 17, 2009
saw a good post by my friend wanted to post it up but has to get his permission 1st lol copyright comes 1st
haha getting injured follow by being spam.... childish dunno y kids nowadays don't grow up and their mature level is like kids even when they are already teens....
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♥Monday, September 14, 2009
last Thursday went swimming thinking of getting back my energy to swim more laps... after swimming had a fall on my injure leg, this time the pain was so great i hardly stand but thx to this guy from sport management who help me along till i manage to hired a cap, while during the ride to TTSH i call my mum to tell her the situation and which hospital i am heading, upon reaching the nurse help me to the wheel chair take me temperature and continue on with the registration. i wait for awhile before i could setter my self down, i took my x-ray, have the doctor check on my injury leg and WOW pain like FUCK, the doctor told me the situation i am in what happen to my leg around how long will it take to recover and blah blah blah blah continue with two jab on my both hand and a bandage to support my leg and also get my self a "birthday present" a pair of crutches =.="' still prefer the wheel chair though, plus a 2 days mc to rest myself.
after taking painkiller, the painkiller dun kill the pain but make me wanna sleep!~
today my mum want me to stay at home! take a half day leave and bring me to polyclinic to see hows my leg recovering and request for a MC for today but the docter say i am not fit to go to school since my school is located too far away from home and she give me a 5 days MC till 18 Sept and i am not allow to do any swimming within this two month OMFG!!!!!
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♥Friday, September 4, 2009
FUCKING IRRITATED BY A BUNCH OF MORONS, THEY CAN NV GROW UP STILL ACTING LIKE A KIDS, SO IMMATURE......
MY TEMPER IS INCREASING GONNA BUST LIKE AN EXPLOSION BETTER STOP IRRITATING ME WHEN I DID NOT EVEN DISTURB YOU MORONS. JUST PRAYING, WISHING, HOPING THAT SOME ONE WOULD HELP TO KILL YOU ALL
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♥Sunday, August 16, 2009
when K yesterday with YS and mei shan sing from 2pm to 7pm then have dinner together, not a good day for singing.. sound like turkey singing. but we have fun eventually, wanted to take a group pic but some one is shy... but still take dun care haha fun !!!
during dinner we chat alot but for some reason we talk till school stuff =.='" whaaa the mood from like 12 story landed all the way to basement 2.... dame it
boring....
still miss my Sec Sch not the classroom but only the music room with my fellow choir member singing as if there is no tomorrow, getting all of us to get ready for stage performance. When stepping in to the stage were everybody starts to quite down there is were our heaven begin, soft piano keys plays and and our voice will sings and at the end the clap of the audience is the music to our ears only on theater, hall or stage is the only places i enjoy, my confidence may not be there but i will do my best to make me feel proud the feeling no one can feel of.
there is time i ask myself why do i join choir during sec 1 without even looking at other CCA booth, and the only ans is i have music in my hearts.
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♥Monday, August 3, 2009
it's been a long time since i blog and i am back for the dunno how many time. Guys thx alot for being there for me no matter what happen ya indeed we really have alots of fun no matter how tired we are^^ thx brother,sister,rongping,clement and kelvin
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♥Tuesday, July 14, 2009
i do not know how to start my post with but E.L you told me to trust and give chances to people around me if not i am not being fair to people who care about me...
i wish to have the determination to try but i do not want to give the chance any more, people can still talk to me and i will still reply but no more trust and chances i do not want the pain and hurts anymore i am extremely tired with stuff like this.
i have 2 friends, we know each other during working, they will try very hard to pull me out for outing even if i reject them to my max just to hold our friendship together, most of the time we do enjoy our self a lot but i will still doubt them by asking myself are they really my friend and i also do find them irritating very irritating i know their good intention but i rather stay at home be left alone listening to my music devise and keep my ear shut off from word's i do not like/want to hear.
the real reason for me to be shut my self in is because i tend to rely on others after a period of time and over trust them and i will only remember and realise only when stuff happen.
sorry E.L i am not able to open up again, this world has no need for friends, who need friends when there is money, money may not buy happiness but at less it make my world go round
life is never fair for me then why make it fair for others? in order to gain something of a same value must be lost (the value can take more then you expected, risk it or drop it)
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♥Sunday, July 5, 2009
this week i really did enjoy myself with poh kim and Aveline with some of their friends,
Monday 29/6, after work slack at Jurong's Playground,
Tuesday 30/6, we went to Sembawang park then walk to Sembawang bottle tree village and from there we walk to Yishun mrt station to meet Aveline's friends and we also brought 3 box of durian to walk to Yishun Dam to eat and slack,
Wednesday 1/7, we went to marsiling to slack at dun really know the place but is somewere near the causeway able to view the sea and malaysia
Thursday 2/7, went working again
Friday 3/7, we went to Vivo to enjoy ourself smoking was not a plan till somthing strike my mind and bother me which i have no idea what is it.... sorry sister and brother i am the way i am i can't control my emotion well something strike my mind and i will feel down and emo a way maybe thinking too much bah..
saturday 4/7, trim my hair...=.="'
Sunday 5/7 TODAY!!! going out to sentosa to enjoy myself and slack since TOMORROW START SCHOOL!!!!
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FCK YOU NBCB YOU ASK ME WORK FOR YOU OK LOR SINCE I LOOKING FOR JOB SEE YOU AS MY FRIEND'S AUNTY I BOUGHT MY PAY DOWN TO MIN $3.50/HOUR WORK 5DAYS A WEEK FROM 10AM TO 10PM OR EVEN LTR...... AND NOW IS ALREADY JULY WHEN YOU WANNA GIVE ME MY PAY ?! HELLOW?! FROM JAN TILL NOW IS ALREADY HALF A YEAR LE LEI LEFT 1K SO HARD GIVE MEH? ...... LAST WEEK SAY LE MONDAY I NEED MONEY FOR SCHOOL YESTERDAY MSG YOU REMIND YOU NOT ASK YOU LEH TEN YOU TELL ME WHAT FCK CLOSE SHOP LE..... THEN DUN KNOW HOW TO MSG BACK IS IT?! DUNNO HOW TO TELL IS IT LEFT 1 DAY WERE YOU WAN ME GET MONEY? BAKA. EVEN WHAT WE CALL SO CALL FRIENDS ALSO GOT LIMIT DE LOR.... IF THATS THE CASE I RATHER TAKE THE MONEY THEN HAVING YOU AS FRIENDS I DUN CARE IF YOU ALL CALL ME MONEY FACE OR WHAT SO EVER CRAP THAT'S MY MONEY, MY HARD EARN MONEY AND I AM NOT LETTING IT GO COMPARE TO MONEY I DUN NEED FRIENDS....
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